Rachel Kirkonil is a very good heart.
The star of reality opens from her separation from Matt James, and revealed that after an interview with everything about their disintegration, and made her not resemble her.
During her appearance in the March 26 episode of the pressure Podcast participated with Tae Lutner, Kirkonil, 28, that she and James spoke after she detailed their division. Call her father Again in January.
At that time, she expressed blindness when James publicly announced her disintegration on Instagram before she took a 12 -hour trip.
Since then, the first Bachelor’s Star arrived. “I think if he wants to share his side and his story, he is more than that, of course,” Kirkonil said.
“I think hearing certain things that come from it helped me a lot. I think, as you know, not only I apologize for things, but it has regained a lot of things.”
Although the conversation offered some closure, it did not change the result.
“Of course, it was really difficult to hear, and it was really sad, which is painful,” she confessed.
“Sometimes I tell myself that it is very good to hear the things I wanted to hear for weeks and finally I got this apology and this closure and honesty that I needed from it.”
But even, Kirkonil explained that the past is still unchanged.
“This is still happening. He was still doing what he did and we still have to move in everything after that,” she explained. As for a place they are standing now? “I did not send a text message to him, I was not calling him, don’t worry,” I confirmed.
Over time, Kirkconnell found a sense of peace, admitting that it is “less sad” because it is reflected in the relationship. She said: “Many things that were not fine or not respected, and this helped me to move forward.”
One thing has not changed? You don’t have any dissatisfaction, “hate or bad” towards James towards James.
“I think you can forgive someone without him, as you know, return them or want to work through things or anything that might be. I think you can forgive someone and accept their apology, but then continue to move forward,” she participated. “But this does not mean that you must return them to your life.”
She said: “I thought that it was also suffering from the revelation that helped her heal,” I think this helped to hold that conversation with him and heard those things from him. ”
“But even if I don’t do it, I think it is extremely important to recognize it yourself, like,” I was not all. My fault was not completely 1,000 percent. “
Despite everything, Kirkconnell admits that part of it still hopes to stay in each other’s life.
“I still wish at the level of what we can be friends. Because he was my best friend,” I participated.
“We do not have to be friends, but friendly will be nice. I want him to be happy, he shouldn’t be with me. I said that since the beginning of our relationship, I said that in the show,” I continued.
“I still feel that today to this day. I just want to be happy even if it is not with each other.”